sad? happy?

christmas wish! that will never come true =(

today i spend my whole day at home. OMG! it's sooo noisy. arghhh. my mum keep asking me about the results. when coming out, what time go school. so i told her, if my results is good then i'm going out. if bad i'm going back home =P that's another promise between me and my mum. i spend nearly the whole day completing my add maths hw and playing games. my mum scolded me =( i'm going to my grandma house tonight. won't be blogging for a few days maybe a week. christmas is coming. i'm not ready for that day yet. oh ya! i not yet put up my christmas clothes. but whoever going to gurney on christmas eve will see me there with my darling of course =) i saw that bear at prangin, S&J that day i went out. it's so cute. i wish i get to buy it =( guess how much is that bear. hehe. it's RM 69.90 i think so. the bigger one is RM 129.90. something like that. i want that bear =( it's a me to you bear. yesterday night we argued. haih. i cried again. i keep crying now days. i'm such a cry baby =( i hope i can stop crying and pretend nothing happen. i just said i lazy to go out on christmas eve and then. he's angry. he send a short good night message and say he need to be alone. i don't know! arghhh! my head is pain. cry cry cry. i love my life because he exist. he make me feel how's the feeling of being loved and cared. and also feel the feeling of being hurt. i hate that feeling the most. that day when we wnet to queensbay, i feel so sad when pass the place where i hugged him and cry. it's so embarassing. i hugged him and ask him not to leave me. that's the worst weeks in my life. from the day i finish my most important exam this year till the day he finish his spm. he treat me so coldly. like i'm just nothing to him =( *speechless* that's what i'll blog for today =) i hate when talk about that day. i cried alot in that weeks. nearly everyday

new day

weeeeee!i lied to my mum again =( i'm sooo bad. but i lied because i want to go out with my darling. i say i'm going to queensbay with joalin. hehehe. my parents drop me at prangin. my dad not working because it's haji. then i waited for my darling to come. i go walk by myself at prangin. i'm thinking about going to find the guys working beside my working place. but i don't think it's a good idea. later someone jealous. hehe. i walk and walk by myself. like a crazy person walking. about 12 my darling reach prangin. we went to popular and then we go to a shop. buy clothes for christmas! i bought a skirt and a shirt. he sponsor 50%. haha. so i buy =P the clothes cost RM 84. so i'm giving him back RM 50. hehe. about 12 something we went down to wait for bus. have to walk for a distance because the bus not going to pesta=( reach his house about 1 PM. his parents and siblings go back to terengganu so i get to go to his house. for the 2nd time =) he go out buy bread and tuna. making sandwich for lunch. i wait for him at home. we eat and watch telly. after eating, go sleep =) not really. haha. go his bed kiss.. hahaha. about 5 somethin we get ready to go to queensbay. it's a bad day. raining so heavily. sob. walk from his house to queensbay. hehehehe. reach there whole leg wet. luckily the rain was not heavy. he want to buy shoes. we're planning to buy the same shoes. adidas shoe. but there's no unisex shoe. so he buy brown colour adicolour shoe. i'm buying baby blue=) his shoe costs him RM 200 plus. over budget. hehehe. so he have to save money. because he need to spend money for christmas eve =0 he spend more than RM 900 this holiday. cool huh? haha. if he want to go out everyday, i think he'll be spending more than RM 1000. after buying his shoes, eating time! we eat dave's deli. then, time to go back =( we go sit bus. lucky because we go out there's a bus to go back to prangin. he follow me back because he's worry. hehe.. reach prangin about 8 something. then sit bus go padang tembak. parents fetch me there. then go eat thai food with my family. eat again=) so i'm becoming fat in no time. hahaha. that's another day. over =)

haihx. i played games.. then, we argue. i don't know what we arguing about also.. my mum then ask me something. headache!

mum: wah! he give you this r? me:yea.. mum: go give back to him. why u accept.. must be very expensive le. me: no ler.. cheap ne. mum: then what he give wei. me: that sweater le. mum: then he give why you accept. me: why not?got ppl gif present should acept mur.. get things for free and also respect that person. =P mum: then why he buy for you and wei only. me: because he's closer to me and her nia ma. mum: then june leh. me: he not that close to june ma. mum: really?wesak day they got talk mer. me: talk ne ler. not very close ma. mum: oh. so he's more closer with you ler. me: he's closer to me because i know his sis ma. mum: don't know you telling the truth or create your own story to tell me.

see!my mum doesn't believe what i'm saying.. sobs. so disappointed =( when my darling know my mum asked me to give him back the sweater and pants, he was so disappointed. but i'm not giving him back and he's like scolding me. is not like i want to give back also. is my mum ask me to give it back. sob sob. then he say at least my mum should respect him. but my mum doesn't know about me and his relationship. arghh! then he was sad and he said he need to rest. i'm worried so i called him but he ask me don't DISTURB him resting. i was sooo shocked when i receive this message. so i said to myself i will off my hp until 8. and then i continue playing games.

about 7 somethin he woke up. he can't contact me so he go play games. this is the only place to contact me. if i off my hp. =) he said he's sorry and stuffssssss.. and then he log out from the game. but i did not on my hp back. so he called my house. then my mum answer the call but he put down the call when my mum say hello. funny! after that i on back my hp. oh well. end of today's life. getting ready for tomorrow's life. going out tomorrow =)

today wake up at 10 something nearly 11.. can't go out ade... tomorrow going out again.. =) tomorrow at last get to go my darling house.. .weeeee! after eating my breakfast and lunch, i combine them together so that i won't eat that much.. and save money.. hahaha! i ask my darling to sms joalin to tell her i can't go.. and ask her if she want to go to queensbay or not tomorrow.. but she didn't reply.. oh well.. wei sms me yesterday night.. she say fiesta is snowing. it's an online game.. hehehe. i will take a picture of the snow in fiesta =) see ya! will post the pic up later =) today nothing special.. maybe i'll go for treatment.. for my hair.. it's becoming back like my old hair.. =( my darling having a driving class later. i can imagine him driving car! so funny =P

mummy and daughter talk, outing

yay!at last i get to go out ade.. woohoooo!happy happy happy =) i woke up at 9 and get ready to go out.. i lied to my mum that i'm going with my frenz. then she ask me to go my friend's house then ask her mum fetch. i was so scared. i told her that my friend's mum don't like to fetch ppl.. hahaha.. i think her mood is good today.. she fetch me to padang tembak to wait for bus. my place 1hour plus only got a bus.. i reach prangin about 11. i go meet my darling and we wait for U103 to go to gurney. we waited for half hour plus but still no bus.. i ask him to sit the old bus he say the bus dirty. at last a bus came about 11.30. we sit U101 but drop at CPT only. so we had to walk from there to gurney.

we reach there and then we go and buy movie ticket.. yay!premier class.. it cost him 32 bucks! expensive right? hahahaa.. after buying ticket we went to eat.. pastamania! hahaha.. but the spaghetti is not really nice =( quite yucky =P but the soup was sooo nice! nyam nyam =) must go try the soup yea =) it's so creamy.. i ordered meatballs spaghetti.. my darling ordered carbonara.... we poured nearly half bottle of the cheese into our pasta n soup xP after eating we go walk walk awhile.. 2.30 we go in watch movie. the movie was quite interesting. we watch i am a legend. after that we go walk again and then we eat sushi before going to prangin..

i cried in the bus because i feel that i'm so bad. he doesn't know =) his dad ask him to go back turtle land. i mean terengganu. he don't know want go back or not because he said he promise to go out with me. but i don't wan him to go back.. arghhh!but i feel so bad didn't let him go back. he should visit his grandma but i... sobs.. i don't know what i want =( never mind.. sobbiex. we reach prangin about 6.30. then we go kai kai.. 7 somethin we went to eat at thai station.. because my mum say she coming to prangin to fetch me ade.. we eat dry curry chicken.. i waited for my mum for a few minutes.. then.. in car!

she ask me what i bought..ok.. here's the convo.. me:earrings, hair clip, n hat..mii, erm, ken min he go KL buy sweater and pants for me.. mummy: why buy for u? he like u hor? me: no la.. he got buy for wei also ma (wei is my friend xP, she become 'mangsa' sorry ^^) mummy:what he buy for wei. me: sweater. mummy: he too rich hor.. me: dunno.. maybe kua. mummy: means he like both of u la.. one hand hold you another hand hold wei. me: NO LA! mummy: then tell me why ur purse got his picture in there. u like him also hor?tell me the truth.. now only me n you.. no1 else..me: no. mummy: you tell lies again. you dare to say that in front of buddha or not? me: *keep quiet* mummy: you like him never mind don't go do nonsense stuff.. me:*thinking myself, wat stuff?* mummy: friend and friend it's ok.. me: yea la yea la..

hahaha.. that's mummy and daughter talk.. i give my mum a bad impression of my darling.. arghhh! and i should tell her the truth.. but i'm scared =( oh well.. it's been a tired day.. n joalin ask me to go out tomorrow... i'm tired tired tired.. better get some rest d..

pastamania! yummy soup

me and my darling. taken in pastamania

new baby!a him!XP name: green green.

leftover food.. look how my darling eat =P

my christmas hat!cute isn't it?

i bought this. spend my 50 bucks ade

bus ticket to gurney plaza

bus ticket from gurney plaza to prangin mall

yay!at last get to sit premier class again =P

band indoor comp

just come back from tuition!arghhh!add maths making my head pain.. i come back straight away on computer ade.. hehehe.. yesterday i didn't blog because my parents home. hehe.. yesterday night band comp was nice =) the winner is heng ee school.. first time meet ariel yesterday and also ben after so long didnt see him.. i think 2 years ade. not counting that day i saw him at gurney. i don't know that's him. hahaha.. what a good friend i am huh.. forget to take pic wif them =p

i must go out tomorrow. life at home is killing me. wee!wee!wee! PMR results is coming out.. 11 more days to go! i did my best. but think back i didn't really study for it. I'm not putting high hopes on the results. no hope no disappointment =) wish i get a good results.. my mum will kill me if i didn't get a good results =( wish me luck for my results

my pants =)

today i woke up at 3PM.. too tired since i sleep at 3AM.. addicted to the movie.. so i watch till 3..hahaha.. i was so sad.. my bf forget that today is our anniversary.. he forget to wish me =( but i forgive him since he's so busy. in door band competition is tomorrow night. i wish i can go. but i not yet ask my mum. pray that my mum let me go.. help me pray too yea =)

my beloved bought me a necklace as my christmas pressie (it's from tiffany & co.) leave me comments about my necklace =) he bought a pants for me too.. i'll upload the necklace pic but he didn't show me the pants pic.. will upload it when i get the pic.. he'll be coming back tonight! i said i will say about myself rite..

well.. i don't know what i'm like..trying to find my inner self.. haha..after finding my inner self then i'll post it up =) i can tell a bit about what i like.. i love pink the most! i hate backstabbers... i got a friend who i treat her as my best friend since i go in SGGS. we always eat and hang out together. but when time passes she changed... changed to a completely different person.. i asked her ex-bf. he said that she's like that since last time.. it's i didn't realise it.. but i felt she changed.. oh well.. she backstab me too... i don't wan to talk about that anymore.. make me sad.. i don't care about her anymore. i got my own friends she got hers.. i want go play games and wait for tomorrow!

my christmas pressie!

Last Christmas

i love this christmas song!

today i woke up at 12 something. actually i wake up at 11 but i sleep back. i'm trying to finish up my add maths homework. my tuition is on monday. there's still alot of works to be done. i'm not done with the homework yet. but my finger feel itchy so i on my computer and start blogging =) my plan is to finish up my homework blog and start playing. oh. i keep saying i'm playing games but i did not say what game. i'm playing fiesta. hehe my beloved is still at KL. he bought a sweater for me. hehe. i'll put up the picture later. i took some pictures of myself too =) i'll write about myself another time. i feel so relaxed after quiting band. i can do what i like without feeling stressed. i called my grandma to ask when is she goin to genting again. i want to go and play! i should tell some of my working experience. i work from 16th of november to 30th november. 15 days only..working is not easy. now i know how hard my dad is working to earn money and i'm wasting his money. i feel so bad. i work at prangin mall at a clothes shop. every morning i have to sit bus to go work. when reach there i have to sweep floor, clean mirror and wipe table. one of the day i don't know what happen. my tauke molest me. my butt =( when i told my bf about it he was so angry. he ask me to stop working. i agreed since he finished his exam already...

this is the sweater my beloved buy for me

first time blogging!

this is the first time i blog. i feel so happy to own a blog. today life is so boring. i need to sit at home the whole day. oh no! i feel so bored. my beloved is not here at penang. he went to KL =( i want to go out. i should go out yesterday. but my mum ask me stay at home. to help her. today i feel so lazy. i spend my whole day playing games. till about 5 something i can't play cause i can't connect to the server. weird rite. play halfway and i'm disconnected =.=

i sit in front of the computer since i think 11 in the morning. haha. they're renovating my house. it's so noisy! i don't know where to sleep tonight. the whole house is full of dust. dust dust dust. hate it. it makes my nose itchy and i'll start sneezing non-stop. i hate my nose. it's so sensitive. oh well...i'm feeling hungry rite now.aahhhh. i'm findin for food! I'M COMING FOOD!

my mum told me about my siblings. they went to temple. coming back this saturday. i love it when they're not at home. =) they have to wake up 6 in the morning and sleep at 9 at night. oh ya!my dad is so funny. my mum is talking about chicken and porks not good for health because they inject them. my dad say they INJECT vegetable too. after thinkin a few seconds he say oh no they put pesticides. hahahahaha. maybe it's not funny for you all but it's funny to me. oh well.

i sleep at 2 a.m. because i'm watching movie! i don't know what's the name of the movie. i'm weird huh? but the movie is sooooo sweet. i'm addicted to that movie.