i think i'll create a new blog. i don't know why but i don't like this blog =) i'll post up my new blog add. see ya there!

my heart feel so pain right now! i feel like crying. but i don't want. i don't want to be a cry baby. i must be tough. but it's so pain. what can i do? why cant' everything be better? why every nice moments will gone because of a few words? i'm trying to think of the reasons. but i can't. is animal having a better life than human? they don't have to worry about anything except for food and shelter. they can do whatever they want. they don't have care about anyone feelings. they just care about their own feelings. they don't have to worry if someone will get hurt or not if they said something wrong. they don't have feelings. but if they don't have feelings how can they like another female animal? they can go anywhere they want. their parents do not care. not like my parents!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i could go anywhere freely. without asking anyone's permission. i wish i could be as far as i can go. i don't want to be here anymore. i don't like this place. how to get out of this place? is this a test from the God or what? i want to be him. but it seems that whatever i do for him is wrong. it's not i want to be protective. i can't help it. i trusted him for 3 times but he make me lose the trust towards him. maybe i'm not supposed to be with him. but i'm supposed to be with him. because he make me feel happy. and sad too. everything doesn't seems right now. i want a relationship that couples don't argue. i'm trying to eliminate everything that will cause us to argue but it won't work. it'll work for a few months. and then, he'll do it back. he will promise me and that. and then, after a while, he'll be giving all kinds of reason to go back to what he wanted at first that i asked him to promise. this is why we'll never stop argue about the same things because he wants it to be that way. i can be happy in front of everyone but deep inside my heart there's a part of it that's bleeding.

my friends tagged me. so i have to tag. will do it soon. soon means when i'm free and in mood to do that =) good night everyone. it's late already.

i hope tomoro will be a much better day than today. i think it'll be. i'll try to smile back as usual. i won't try. i'll do it =] P.S. I Love You my Darling. i hope you understand me better by reading this =]

i'm really pissed off right now. today is really a bad day. i'm like........................i feel like shouting!!!!!!!!!! i can't. i just get scolded by my mum. why can't they just shut up and let me have some privacy. do i look like i'm still a lil kid? i know i'm short and i look like a std 6 girl but i'm not! I'M NOT! then there's this problem that he start bringing up again. i'm like baby crying there. arghhhh! why? i thought everything is ok d. why must it be like that? i know. i have friendster and that is going to be the day that problems will start to happen again. i know it. he'll surely do something one. i'm not trying to say he's not trustable. but, i just can't trust anyone already. i trusted him 3 times. and now. i can't trust him already. i'm trying to convince myself that he's a good guy. he know he's wrong and he won't repeat it again. but it doesn't work. i still can't trust him. i don't know why. i really want to know why. and there's friends. the one that i trust is.... i don't know hat to say ler. she's really so two-faced. she can be sooo good in front of you and say bad about u behind u. if it's me, i wont be treating the one i hate that nice and talk back about her behind her. who should i trust? maybe i should know them first before really trust them and tell them everything. is this how life is supposed to be? i want a better life. just when i put up the wish list, things happen. i can't see hope for my wish to come true anymore. =/

i lie to my mum again =/ i'm a bad bad girl. i know i know. someone slap me =( MY FAVOURITE MOVIE~! i'm going to buy the movie. hehehe. i just went out with my beloved. we went to gurney as usual. then, there's this problem again. i don't like that. i want everything to be normal back. i just hate it. am i that hated? i mean, she's good in front of me but she say i have an attitude which she can't stand it. i don't know waht attitude she mean. i want to know yet i don't want. should we tell her bout her attitude or leave it? i know i'm not that good to other people. because i know i won't get back what i wanted them to give. i'll just let it be. naturally. if they feel that i'm that bad to them. i can be friends with other people. please do not act in front of me. i don't wan to lose a friend. but if that is what she give me back when i treat her as a friend then i don't think i'll care anymore =] just let them be the way they want to be. i don't want to care anymore. i will be the way i am last time. i'm happy with last time life. it's so so so mush better than nowadays life. and yea. i regret telling my mum about me having a bf. i can't concentrate on what i'm doing. i have to do all good things. i can't do a single bad things. if not she'll start saying, i don't know what happen to you. i'm like. me? what i did? i just want to do what i wanted. she just can't keep her mouth shut. and there's my dad. i'm fucking angry with him. he thinks i'm that super clever girl. i'm his daughter and he should know i'm not clever. i tried my best already and he keeps scolding me. if he's that clever, why don't he just go and study and show how good he is???????? can't i get away from this family and live with my bf. he'll treat me much better ler. so much better than them. he can give me what i want. ok. not everything ler. but at least, i can feel love in him. not my parents. they don't care about my feelings. friends, family. i'm just telling out my feelings. if you all don't like it then, i'm sorry.

lazy lazy lazy

i'm supposed to post up. but as usual. i'm lazy. i just knew something yesterday. my mama show me a message. it was like.. i don't know. i feel very sad for my that friend. she's a nice friend. ok. i know i'm confusing u all. take it like that. there's 3 girls, namely, K, S, and L. all of them are best friends. as in like very good friends. so one day, S sms a girl to tell her that she cannot tahan L attitude anymore. but on the other hand L told K that S chat with her and tell L about her problems. she just said she cannot tahan her attitude. i can't believe it. i mean she's a very nice girl. maybe she's too sad or what. that's not her. actually, last time she's like that but she's a bit better than now. she's like a completely different girl already. i hope she realise it and she'll change. we'll be waiting for her to change back to herself =] MPO is just around the corner!!!!! i'm so excited. not really ler. but i just want to get out of this place. i can go and have some fun there and then come back and continue study. and i'll shop till i'm happy. oh yea. MPO is a trip. to KL. but too bad this year we have 4 hours to shop only. sad right? it's limited time. so so so limited. i don't think i'll have enough time to shop for clothes. i hope i can same clothes with my friends. it'll be so fun. i guess i'll be posting up more after my trip. and more pictures. u'll see all weird pictures there. weeeeeeeeee~! can't wait for it. one more week and i'm LEAVING penang. hehehe. last saturday was flag day. we just walk around at Pulau Tikus area with june, jing min, cynthia(my hubby), and also pei ying. then about 9 something, we went to Gurney Plaza and sat there. there was a group of uncle and aunty dancing. they can memorize the steps so fast. so damn keng ler. i look at them also like blur blur ler. can't catch up. so paiseh. hahaha! then, there's this uncle. he said we're so patient can sit and look at them dance but did not walk there and ask for them to donate. then we were like 'no, uncle. we want to watch u all dance not waiting for u all to donate.' then he said that we should erm. i can't remember he said. i just remember he say we must smile =] see! i'm smiling. haha. and one day, we should make about 3 friends. so one year we can make about erm.. let me count. my math is very bad. haha. 1000 plus. hahaha. keng right. his name is Mr. Sunny Ko. hehehe. i guess that's all for today. i waste the whole day watching movie and laying on bed. haha. now i online and post up. i did not touch any of my hw. weeeeeee~!

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voting day

hahaha. today is voting day. want to see who's winning. but i think everyone know who will win d ler. haha. just wake up. not yet even brush my teeth yet =p tuition. i dont feel like going. lazy ler. after exams already still have to go tuition. and also it's hols d =( waaaaaaa! ok ler. i want to go eat and bath already. will post again. mayb tomoro =0 today should be nothing happening ler. hehe. just wait for the results~!

pictures=memories

my lucky clover bracelet =]

my lucky clover necklace. it's a heart if combine together with my hubby one

inside the box. stars. i'm folding it since last year after PMR. haha

my birthday pressie when i'm std. 6.the hair is nice =]

my collection! i want more. =p

love! is wonderful

it's so cute isn't it? my hubby buy for me when he went to kek lok si =]

my angpau this year.

the cutest angpau! but too bad i destroy part of it. the another side of the pooh is gone =p

stars made from straws. nice!

i took this at queensbay =] nice big love

my new shoe! love it so much.

the partner of my lil cute green green =p

i love this star! it's so nice. i saw it at popular. waiting for someone to buy for me xp

my working money and my grandma give for getting 6A's money =]

EXAMS OVER, SCHOOL HOLS!

exams is over. at last. this exam really make me go crazy. the only school exam that i really study for it =p i think i'll fail this exams. even i studied but when i look at the paper, i go crazy! oh well, forget about exams. it's going to be an exciting day on monday when school reopen. i think when the teacher is marking the paper, they'll be laughing at my stupid answers XD i ignored my blog so long already. should post up more often d. too lazy to on the com. oh well. that's me =] a STUPID mosquito bite me =( it's so itchy. arghhh! valentine's day was wonderful =p i went to gurney. and my pressie! it's a me to you bear. hahaha.but i did not bring it back as my mum will know. i don't know how to bring it back =( what should i tell my mum? hmmm. so, today is ze's birthday. i-lyn bought a cake. actually, it's her dad. we sing birthday song. n we eat the cake. i did not eat. hahaha. n no one realised =p i just came back from ze's house. after my add maths tuition, she fetch me, i-lyn and june to her house and we ate pizza. from domino's pizza. she go all the way from farlim to gurney just to buy the pizza. hahaha. while eating, we watch a walk to remember. it's supposed to be sad. i cried when i read the story book but not watching. hmmm.maybe there's too many ppl there i can't cry. haha. this hols must be a busy one. haha. i'm going out to skate, celebrate joalin's birthday and with my hubby. i think my mum will kill me ler. sobs. i want to go. i'm waiting for this hols and if i really can't go out, i'll die =( that should be all. will post more often. i want to put up some pics =] in the next post. good night readers. =]

my CNY clothes =]

shirts

another 2 more. the white 1 look a bit like apron xP

skirts and pants =]

tummy muscle cramp

today i went to school untill 11 only. my stomach hurts. because of some private things. it's pulling me and i can't even laugh. yet my friends is making me laughing. i called my mum and she fetched me back. i went back and eat my lunch and then i bath and went to bed. i planned to sms with my darling. but as usual, i fall asleep. after a rest, my tummy feel better. i spend nearly the whole day sitting in front of telly. watch movie. i feel so lazy to go to school. i want holidays. i want to meet my darling =( i miss him so much. that day when i went to queensbay with my mum and siblings, he did not hug me. sob sob. i was so sad. i kissed him and he did not reply my kiss too. waaaaaaaaaaa~! he's going to turtle land already =( turtle land means terengganu. hehe. i want to celebrate CNY with him. but i can't go out with him. arghhhh~! i jus twish everyone knows about our relationship and i can go out with him freely =(

is other girls more important than ur own gf feelings?

is talking to other girls that important? why are they lying? if they feel other girls is nicer to talk with why don't they be single and go flirt with millions of other girls. no one will ever care. right? haih for guys. disappointed with what they're doing. they didn't even keep their promises and they expect us girls to keep it. why don't they just go take that girl as their girl. all and every girl who flirts with my darling is a bitch! haih. if the girls is that important why do they still want their gf? what's that for? for them to play with? for they to do anything? is every guy in this world like that? or will there be a guy that will listen to their gf and won't do it. help me!!!!! i hate this life. he said when go to college or university time i'll understand. he say to change me before i become his wife. so funny! why should i understand it? i know i don't like it. if working time he talk. i don't mind. that's of course have to. that's the only thing i can see that a guy that have a gf need to talk to other girls. not flirt with them. i don't know le what they really want. haih

why is human not satisfied with what they got?? why can ppl feel jealous so easily?

i don't understand this statement. why is human always not satisfied with what they got? i gave him what i can. and he feels it's not my best yet. but i feel i gave my best already! then i said i feel u're not giving me ur best also. he said he gave the best already. can anyone tell me what is wrong? why is human so greedy? i hope my relationship with him will get better because from what i feel we can solve this problem if we really discuss it properly. why do i feel jealous when he talks to girl? i know that i'm not supposed to tie him up. he's not my husband or what. he's just my bf. but i don't like the feeling when he talks to other girl. u know.. he will flirt. eventhough he say that's not flirt. but i feel he is flirting. arghhh! i hate it. why must there be jealousy in me! oops! i just cracked my head bone =P back to topic. that sunday when i went to queensbay with my friends to celebrate wei birthday, he said he don't want to pass his working place. i said ok. then i said i wanted to go see his working place and i asked him to stand here i walk pass awhile. i don't know why but he's following. so i said for the second time. he said never mind and he said he want to prank his 'friend' which his my band senior. ex band senior. i said it in a very like don't like it way. and the next thing i know is he walked to his working place as if there's a pot of gold in front there! i was so angry so i walked away with my friend. lik WTF! he said don't want to pass and he's walking there so damn fast. that time i was really really angry and my leg hurts. after 'flirting' with his friend, he came to me. i did not answer any of his questions. at all! i can't believe it. he's flirting in front of me! haih. this is not about the jealous stuff but still. if i'm not angry of this then i think something should be wrong somewhere with this relationship already rite? hehe. hate it so much! arghhhhhhhh.

life life life

i went out with my darling yesterday after school. we walked there. i go out to disted side after putting my bags. but he was sitting at the bus stop. so i walked near him. but there's other students there so i don't dare to walk go and talk to him. he was talking on the phone. and a bus passed. he said that bus is not going to gurney. so we have to walk. that time i asked him to walk. and he stood there. i was like so scared and he's standing there. i shout louder and then he walked. i was so fed up. so i walked very fast. haha. he was like calling me and i kept quiet. i know i'm bad =P but he make me angry. it's not my fault. hehe. we reach gurney at about 2.45. it's 31st! baskin robbins. sob. i want to eat. too bad no money. haha. on the way to gurney, i hide behind a car and took off my uniform. i know i'm crazy xP then when we reach gurney we ate 1901 hot dog. i missed the hot dog so much. it's so yummy! after eating he wanted to buy his clothes. so i followed him and choose. he went to Soda and he want to buy the shirt there. went to ATM machine to take money. and went back to the shop. when he try the shirt i went in the fitting room with him xP but i feel so weird because that shop it's like all ladies no men. he is the only man there. and i went into the fitting room with him. he bought 2 shirts. blue and brown. we went in the toilet and kissed again =P about 5.30 we walked back. on the way, we drank a lot of water. then he shake the bottle of water. i asked him don't shake it. it's bad for health. he don't want to listen to me. he shake more and more. and i was so damn angry. i straight away walk without caring about him anymore. he asked me i want the water or not. i said yea i want to drink but not now. then when he shake the water, i told him don't shake already if not i won't drink. he shake more. i am really really angry that time. if you're me will you feel the same? yes right? ishk! then he walked to the bus stop opposite my school. 6 plus the bus came. he went back and i'm with a girl in the school. later, about few minutes later she went back. i'm alone there with the guards only. the school is so quiet. it's like i never been in such a quiet place before. i feel so calm there. everything is like gone for awhile until i went back. my mum ask me why i love to sleep so much. she said the ppl who love to sleep got shorter life. is that true? hmmmm. i never heard of that before. hehe. or is she just saying that to make me feel scared? hmmmm. hehe. and she asked me i sms with who again. is it that yeap (means my darling). i kept quiet. i know she know what i want to say eventhough i did not answer. she said don't talk to him that much. he's not studying anymore u're still studying. he can sleep till late u can't. hehe. then she said friday and saturday night u want to sms till what time i don't care. now u sleep so late who suffer. she stop awhile then ask me why u talk so much with him. he's ur bf already is it. i was so suprised with that question. i did not answer again.

booo!

weeeeeeee~! i not yet put my clothes pic up yet. ishk! keep forgetting about it. hehe. forgive me =) i received a message that said there's a ghost in Queensbay Mall. i'm so worried =( i hope it's not true. i'm scared. help me help me. i hope my life will get better as time pass by. my beloved took car exam in the morning. he failed and he's sad. i don't know what to do to help him. i feel so stupid and sad too. haihx. i can't even make him happy. what a gf i am. i just hope that he can be happy. but he's like eating to release his anger. he keep buying food to eat. i don't know what to do. i hope he'll feel better by the end of today =) but he seems very excited with the pic of ghost in QB. so i guess he's a bit better right now. school. there's this teacher. teaching me EST. i really hate her le. she keep giving homework. every lesson there will sure be a pile of homework for EST. ishk! hate her so much. then there's this discipline teacher. i don't know why but i keep met her in school. so bad luck. my hair and also ear. everytime meet her i have to pin up my hair and also take out my earrings. haihx. i'm so unlucky! she said she chose me to become a prefect but because of my hair and ear she did not asked me to g ofor the interview. she make it as if i want to be one like that. i don't wish to be a prefect. there's so many rules to follow and everything. but school is quite fun. with all my friends around. hope my schooling year this year would be better =)

thaipusam! =P

that day when i went out with my friends to prangin to buy present. this is what i bought. with my RM 30 savings in my purse =( ishk! should not buy it. things are getting more complicated. i hope i can forget everything about what that had happened. my parents and siblings is out to youth park there for thaipusam. throwing coconut =P i feel lazy to go because it's hot and also wet and everything. hahaha. things is getting bit better about my relationship with my friend i said before this. she gave me a Chinese New Year card. she wrote there she hope we can be friends like when we were in form1.

so i send a message to her. i said sure. and i hope things will be better. but we seldom chat and also talk. that's the biggie problem. today in school, i only asked her about biology rough book. see! that's what we said to each other for the whole day in the school. she's with her friends and i'm with mine. i don't talk to her when she's with her friends. oh well =) just hope things will get better by the end of June.

talking about Chinese New Year card. is getting nearer! a few weeks left. and my clothes is done already. what i need right now is a pair of shoes. which my mum promised to but it for me. =P i'll put on some pics of my clothes up. in another post. hehe. i bought 2 shirt from Padini, 1 pants from Body Glove, 2 shirts, a skirt and a pants from some shop. hahaha. but the skirt is short. my dad is angry with me because i bought such a short skirt =P what to do. i'm still a girl. hehe. i wan the tube from Padini. but it's quite expensive =( arghh! purse. i want to buy new purse but i don't have money. waaaaaaa! i want money. and i need money. sob sob.

my new watch

n also new sunglasses =) ignore my clothes. i'm wearing pajamas

this flower blooms during Chinese New Year only. how sad

my shirt from Padini. fabulous! =P

is the handbag nice? from Oreef.

nyam nyam. i want to eat =(

flowers! they're so pretty. unlike me.

my love life

OMG! i'm having mood swing. again. why must i do this? i'm like making him give up all his things. i just hope i never exist in his life. sob. i'm such a cry baby. why must i make him feel so bad. he already plan everything and i'm like destroying his whole future. what's wrong with me? he's going to KL only right? but why am i so sad. i should trust him. but why aren't me trusting him? can someone tell me what should i do? he wants to give up his dream because i'm sad. and now i asked him to continue his dream. and he say it depends on me. so it's like i should stop feeling sad? is that what he mean? or because of me he'll make his decision? he said he cant go with my condition like that. moody. future. i can't predict it. i hope i can predict the future. so that i know what should i do to make things back. i'm so stressed! with the school activities plus my tuition, and my problems with him. i'll have white hairs in no time. i have no idea what to do anymore. guess i should just take some rest. maybe i'll feel bettter tomorrow. haihs. how long will i be like that? until he's back from his study? or what? ...... *speechless* maybe i should pretend that i'm ok with it. and let him go study. when he finishes his study only i tell him the truth. this will make him go. and the only way. i can't think of anything else. i won't feel better so fast. i need time. and the time i need may takes few months time. i'll think about that. lie to him. doesn't sounds good but that's the one and only way. haihs

school?holidays?

today is a public holiday and a day for us to rest. hehe.but it's making me becoming more lazy to go to school. i hope it's holiday every year! i went out with my friends. to buy present for ash. and also go buy new clothes for new year. but i don't know why i go because i didn't even bring enough money to buy clothes. i bought a sunglasses and a watch. white watch. hehe. i seldom wear watch but i don't know why i buy it. i know i'm sick. but that watch look nice, so i bought it. i'm so unlucky this year. i hate my class this year. as in the people in the class and the teachers. one of my teacher, that is the one teaching me chemistry, she don't know how to speak in english! for god's sake! she's teaching us in english but she don't know how to speak. i think it's a disaster. and also the people in the class. i got my friends in there, that is my mama, june and cynthia. and the rest is like i don't really know them at all. i don't wan that girl to be in the same class with me and she's in. oh god! i just hope i can kill the teachers. why can they put us in a same class! i just feel like killing her when see her face. luckily i'm changing tuition soon. so i won't see her that often =/ seeing her can make me grow older faster. stop about unlucky stuff. school is full of things! stay back after school for activities. and also for science students who is taking accounts, we'll have to stay back extra time. i don't like it. argggh! can't contine anymore. my parents is back.

life and love

it has been a few days already i didn't say i love you to him. haih. i don't know why must i do this. i don't like it. but he's going to go KL to study. i dont know why i'm thinking so negatively. i hope i can be more positive =/ hmmmm. is this me? always think the negative side? sometimes i feel like take a knife and stab myself. and die! arghhh! i'm thinking of reducing my love towards him. so, if he fall in love with another girl when studying at KL then i won't feel so sad. i know i'm stupid. that's the only way so that i won't feel so hurt when he really do fall in love with another girl. can i do it? i really hope i can. now he's working so our sms time is getting lesser plus i have to stay back after school and tuition. i don't know what to do. can anyone tell me what should i do? my mum know that he wants to become a chef. then my mum said if he work here he won't get much money. i told her that he's going to work in cruise. she say if he work in cruise then he'll only come back a few times a year. and he have to 'separate with you'. but she said that quite soft. it's like her words make me think about my neighbour. her husband work in cruise as a chef. but he's rich. the bad things is he only come back to see them like twice a year? i can't do it. it's TWICE! i love him but the problem is things is getting worst. now we're not playing games because we feel that we keep arguing after playing. i don't know why. i hope we won't anymore. but nothing seems to work. today i saw a gown. at prangin. look like a wedding gown. it's so nice! i hope i can wear it. then i think about what he said. about our marriage and everything. it's so nice when discussing about that. but when thinking about the problems when becoming an adult, i don't want to grow up anymore. but i want to be free. i want to go out anytime i like. i know it's a funny thing to discuss about marriage when i'm still so young. and he's my first love only. love? what does love really mean? i really don't know what love means? is it about honesty? or is it about what? i hope i can forget everything and start my life again by knowing better people. not that i hate the people in my life right now. i just don't know what to do. i want to be a good girl. but what i do doesn't seems to be right. i can't be a good gf. that's for sure. i can't even handle myself. how can i be someone's gf. i'm a cry baby. i don't know how to do housework. i know nothing. i'm such a negative thinker. i don't know why i can be like that. i hope my relationship with him will be better. i said that if he did not fall in love with another girl when he's at KL then i'll give him back twice the love i'm going before this. i hope nothing will happen. hope my bears will help me when really he do fall in love with another girl there. i can't predict the future. so it's better i prepare. it's late already. guess i should off the computer and sleep. night!

hello!

it's been such a long time since the last day i blog. so many things happenend. well, erm let me see. where to start. staying at my grandma house isn't that bad like what i think. quite nice to be there since i can go out with my cousin when they go out. hehehe. then, somethimes i come back to my house to play games but i didn't blog. was too noisy. can't concentrate. so my house now is like a new house! not really new just that it's better than last time =) quite alot of things happen when i stay at my grandma house. i fight with my sis for a place. we end up full of scratches on hands and legs. haha! if u saw me this few days, u can see it on my hands and legs. actually, i sit there first. then i went to take my hp because i'm charging it. then my sis sit at my place because i go away already. but i'm just moving away awhile. so when i reply my messages already, i asked her to move away let me sit. and she say all sorts of things. so i get angry and push her aside. this is when the fighting start. she kick me with her leg because she was sitting and i'm standing. so i can scratch her face she can't. luckily. haha! i'm a bad bad sis =P on the 30th i woke up late. my parents and sis went back to house to clean the house already. so left me and my bro with my grandma at her house. my sis having an appointment to straighten her hair at 11. see!she's only 13 this year and she get to straighten her hair already! it's so unfair! i can't even straighten my hair when i'm F2. my mum is not fair! arghhh! about 11 somethin my cousin came. she say she's going to prangin with her bro. so i said i want to follow. but my darling's hp credit used up already. so i called him up and ask if he can go to prangin or not. then he said ok! haha. get to see him again. my bro is going! so my cousin say i'll take care of him u go walk with your boy. so i agreed. too bad that time we don't have enough money, we can't even watch a movie. we only eat a burger. because my grandma give me 10 bucks only. then, we sit at popular for quite a long time. then they came in too. my bro saw my darling holding my bag, so he walk to our place and she saw us! i nearly die that time. hahaha. before that i was sitting between my darling's leg leaning on him. luckily he say his butt pain so we stand up. if not we're totally dead. haha later i told my mum that i want to go out tomoro for new year. then she say i told u already u either go out on christmas or newq year. so u chose christmas, now cannot go out already. then i said, before this u say can. i finish PMR only i tell u already i'm going out. u say ok. now u say cannot. oh ya. talking about PMR. i get 6A's only. i should study geo! then i'll get straight A's =( oh! forget about that. talk back about asking permission to go out. i asked her can i stay at my friend's house after celebrating new year. she say no! arghh! i'm just lying. because i'm going to somewhere else with my darling. i don't know where to go with him late at night. haha! not hotel of course. hehe. i can't stay so my mum said she'll fetch me =) new year eve was quite fun. quite alot of ppl wear black and red. haha! i wear black. hehe. we watch treasure something. i forgot the name of the show =P after watching, it's about 9 something already i think so. outside no one is spraying! haha. then later, ppl start playing and it get more and more. then, i don't know what happen. a police car is there, and they started throwing spray cans again. not alot of them. just some. but still, it's bad. it's atired day. went back straight away sleep. haha. school was boring. especially teachers! there's so many things to study. i'm in science stream taking accounts. accounts seems interesting. i don't know but i hope i can manage it =) haha! it's not easy to study so many things. and we have to stay back till 3.20 everyday except friday. but friday we're going back at 2.40! everyone going back at 2. sad =( i lazy to blog already. i want to play my games again. haha. nights! will blog again soon. weeeee! school school school! and tuitions!