i'm really pissed off right now. today is really a bad day. i'm like........................i feel like shouting!!!!!!!!!! i can't. i just get scolded by my mum. why can't they just shut up and let me have some privacy. do i look like i'm still a lil kid? i know i'm short and i look like a std 6 girl but i'm not! I'M NOT! then there's this problem that he start bringing up again. i'm like baby crying there. arghhhh! why? i thought everything is ok d. why must it be like that? i know. i have friendster and that is going to be the day that problems will start to happen again. i know it. he'll surely do something one. i'm not trying to say he's not trustable. but, i just can't trust anyone already. i trusted him 3 times. and now. i can't trust him already. i'm trying to convince myself that he's a good guy. he know he's wrong and he won't repeat it again. but it doesn't work. i still can't trust him. i don't know why. i really want to know why. and there's friends. the one that i trust is.... i don't know hat to say ler. she's really so two-faced. she can be sooo good in front of you and say bad about u behind u. if it's me, i wont be treating the one i hate that nice and talk back about her behind her. who should i trust? maybe i should know them first before really trust them and tell them everything. is this how life is supposed to be? i want a better life. just when i put up the wish list, things happen. i can't see hope for my wish to come true anymore. =/

haihx. i played games.. then, we argue. i don't know what we arguing about also.. my mum then ask me something. headache!

mum: wah! he give you this r? me:yea.. mum: go give back to him. why u accept.. must be very expensive le. me: no ler.. cheap ne. mum: then what he give wei. me: that sweater le. mum: then he give why you accept. me: why not?got ppl gif present should acept mur.. get things for free and also respect that person. =P mum: then why he buy for you and wei only. me: because he's closer to me and her nia ma. mum: then june leh. me: he not that close to june ma. mum: really?wesak day they got talk mer. me: talk ne ler. not very close ma. mum: oh. so he's more closer with you ler. me: he's closer to me because i know his sis ma. mum: don't know you telling the truth or create your own story to tell me.

see!my mum doesn't believe what i'm saying.. sobs. so disappointed =( when my darling know my mum asked me to give him back the sweater and pants, he was so disappointed. but i'm not giving him back and he's like scolding me. is not like i want to give back also. is my mum ask me to give it back. sob sob. then he say at least my mum should respect him. but my mum doesn't know about me and his relationship. arghh! then he was sad and he said he need to rest. i'm worried so i called him but he ask me don't DISTURB him resting. i was sooo shocked when i receive this message. so i said to myself i will off my hp until 8. and then i continue playing games.

about 7 somethin he woke up. he can't contact me so he go play games. this is the only place to contact me. if i off my hp. =) he said he's sorry and stuffssssss.. and then he log out from the game. but i did not on my hp back. so he called my house. then my mum answer the call but he put down the call when my mum say hello. funny! after that i on back my hp. oh well. end of today's life. getting ready for tomorrow's life. going out tomorrow =)